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This is our story

Words are not what they used to be,
back when each word you wrote carried the weight of your hand
and with it the stories of how you learned to write
and the mistakes that taught you how.

Typewritten words are so swift and quick it has taken away
the beauty and art of writing. It does not
teach you how the wrong words, even when erased, leave a mark.
Your fingers do not carry the weight of perfecting your handwriting, you just choose
whichever font suits you and format it within seconds.
It had become a habit you’re used to doing that repeating it
over and over again
takes away everything until it becomes
nothing.

That is our story.
A bunch of words that never carried the weight of our lives
that it always left us feeling empty. We tried to bridge the gap
with words, filling the empty spaces.
But when you fill emptiness with nothing, it implodes.
And every time we made a mistake, we jumped
one step back and pretended that it never happened.
We did this over and over again that the marks our mistakes left became
permanent, we forgot it was never there when we started.

I asked you to write me a letter,
one that carried the weight of your hand, the heaviness of your thoughts,
one that carried stories of mistakes, of revisions, because you wanted your
handwriting to be perfect. But you didn’t. Instead,
you gave me one printed from a computer shop across the street because
you were too lazy to set up your printer.
The words sounded poetic, it was an ocean I had to dive deep into.
But it meant nothing.

I knew you typed that letter in five minutes, that
you didn’t bother to think of the words in advance because
you knew that you could always press delete whenever you wanted to.
You would right click one of the words and check out its synonyms
because you thought it would make the words sound better. But it didn’t.
Your letter lost its meaning from the very moment you typed it in your computer screen.

If only.
If only we learned from the start that empty words
would never fill the space between us. Maybe we wouldn’t have hearts
jagged and broken because our pieces never fit together.
Maybe we would never make those mistakes over and over again. Maybe we would never
pretend that we felt warm when we wrapped our arms around each other,
maybe we would have the strength to let go because
we knew we were better on our own.
If only. But we didn’t.

Kite

 

You came into my dreams
Then left me with nightmares
I woke up in the morning
Felt the bruises on my skin.

You tied me up with your strings,
Held me up, watched me float into the clouds
Promised me that you cared,
Won’t let go but then you lied.

You cut me loose, set me free
But I came tumbling down
Got stuck on the branches
Waiting for someone to take me down.

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You promised me that you cared
Won’t let go but you lied.
You took my wings, cut the strings
Now I’ll never fly.

 

Photo taken from We Heart It and links back to source.

Tattered

Unwanted, abandoned, alone

My heart is a rag doll, tattered and torn.

Left on a shelf with the ashen dust

Still waiting for someone to pick me up.

 

Hold me, hug me, catch me.

Erase the scars left on my skin.

Pick up the pieces of my heart,

Save me before I disappear in the dark.

Broken

Torn, shattered and broken,

Three words and the story of a girl.

Breathless, voiceless and lifeless,

Three words and the picture of a girl.

 

Mend me, heal me, save me.

Her heart cries out with tears.

But people hear only heartbeats,

They can’t even see the tears.

My Heart is Partly Mended

My heart’s partly mended

And I want it to be whole,

I guess the wounds you left when you hurt me

Were cast so deep within.

 

My heart feels like breaking

When I’ve tried to mend it back.

I’ve stitched it back together,

But you keep on cutting it up.

 

My heart’s already bleeding

Trying hard to keep on beating

And now that it’s been crying,

I’m trying hard to go on smiling.

 

Oh please why don’t you just leave me alone?

I’m alright now, my life has to go on.

Though i know no one can fill the empty space you’ve left in my heart

I’m gonna mend this broken heart of mine.

 

Though it’s partly whole

And partly broken,

I know in the right time

It’ll be whole again.